- feeling of anxiety: an unpleasant feeling of anxiety or apprehension caused by the presence or anticipation of danger
- frightening thought: an idea, thought, or other entity that causes feelings of fear
- reverence: respect or awe for somebody or something
Do you struggle with fear? Lately I have confronted it rather often. For the most part I win those confrontations by taking it to God and giving it to Him to deal with! And by being reminded that He loves me just as I am and my worth is not measured by my accomplishments and what other people think of me.
It is easy to talk about the things I want to do and plan to do them. But actually doing them means I might fail. And fear comes knocking. One result is that I put off doing the things I want or need to do. I find ‘busy work’ to do, telling myself that stuff needs done too. Which it does, indeed, need attention but in reality I’m just avoiding doing the things that MIGHT flop. And by not getting at it and doing it I don’t KNOW if it will flop but I fear it might so I hide behind the things that do, perhaps, need done, but aren’t really that important, and don’t help me carry out the goals I want to accomplish. And on and on, and round and round. Just like that run-on, convoluted sentence 🙂
I’ll just put it out here – one of my big fears right now is this Etsy shop of mine I keep talking about opening in JULY! Yes, I know July is right around the corner. And I don’t have pictures edited, uploaded, descriptions written, etc. I have some ideas in my head of things I want made to list in the shop when it opens but I haven’t got at it and made them. You see, fear keeps dogging me! What if it is a big fat flop? What if no one buys stuff? I’m in the ‘declutter’ mode lately and I certainly don’t want people buying stuff that they don’t need or want! What am I thinking anyway? Maybe I should just give it up already. And on it goes.
I have blog posts I want to write that I’m not finding time to write. I have a dress to make for a friend that I have pushed to the bottom of the pile for over 6 months! (hanging head in shame) I have a dress for another friend and a dress for her daughter that need made and I’m not finding time to make them. I get overwhelmed over all the things I have here to do, the things I want to do, and sometimes I just hide, let fear take over, and I don’t accomplish anything!
Am I the only one who feels this way? And really, what am I opening myself up to putting it out here like this? My readers will now know I really am a nutcase and totally not worth their time! And there I go again, letting fear take control.
And then I am gently reminded that I can give it to God – again. He is always there to take it and shoulder it for me. Remind me of the things He has worked out for me in the past few months. That I am loved and very worthwhile to Him. And that is all that really matters. So I will busy myself today with the things that have to be done (like finishing this bridesmaid dress 🙂 ) and I will focus on finishing up some things that have to happen before I open up shop. AND. I am going to give myself a deadline. EEEEEK! But I’ve never missed a deadline yet so hopefully this will help. Opening date is July 11. Of course, since I’m setting that deadline for myself it is possible to change it but I’m going to do my best to kick this fear factor out the window and embrace definition number 3 above. Reverence and awe of my wonderful Creator God who made me, gave these talents, cares about every aspect of my life, and can turn fear into peace.
Do you struggle with fear? How do you deal with it??*photos are all projects I have put off for one reason or another